I think I’m officially depressed. This weather is giving me so many depressing thoughts and I hate it. Why do I live in Maryland? Why am I so picky with friends? Why am I so different?

so many questions unanswered and it almost makes me resent God. I know the blame shouldn’t be on Him but I feel like a lot of my prayers went unanswered. What am I waiting for God? Why did you create me and place me in a district I clearly don’t fit into?

I’m a summer girl and summer girls don’t belong in cold, suburban places like MD. That’s like asking for depression :(

I’ve been fantasizing about my future ever since I was a young girl. Whenever someone bothered me I’ve always thought to myself, “Wait until you see me later on..you’ll regret.” And now that I’m getting closer and closer to that…future, it’s making me realize things don’t turn out the way I want to most of the time. Of course, I could’ve put more effort into being “that” girl but I began lacking determination and will so I stopped. 

I became hopeless