December 2010
9 posts
I’m 17 now. STOP BABYING ME
omfg… this shit disturbs me. It makes me want to leave and never come back even more than I used to.
I can’t stand listening to half the words that come out of my mom’s mouth sometimes. Like really? did you THINK before you talk or did you just feel like being a massive bitch today. Most arguments start with YOU saying the stupidest shit of my life. I WILL make this relationship hell if this continues
1. my room is not a place to “chill” and “relax” especially...
I don't like being attached to anyone
so I will always be pushing the ones I love most away from me..including my parents. I can never have a healthy and stable relationship with either of them for this reason. It’s just the way I was raised. I’ve felt alone in this world ever since I was in second grade. I don’t need anyone’s pity either..because that’s what I’m used to. This has been my flaw ever...
I think I’m officially depressed. This weather is giving me so many depressing thoughts and I hate it. Why do I live in Maryland? Why am I so picky with friends? Why am I so different?
so many questions unanswered and it almost makes me resent God. I know the blame shouldn’t be on Him but I feel like a lot of my prayers went unanswered. What am I waiting for God? Why did you create me...
wow I got another allergic reaction today and I had to use the epipen.
damn my life sucks
wtf so uh…this is my PERSONAL blog so I hope nobody ever stumbles upon this. anyways…
I lost my train of thought since tumblr was under that stupid maintenance shit.
It really sucks being deferred from a college that I actually want to go to. I hate applications so much.
So yesterday, I got really excited after finding out what I want to do with my life. It’s been my dream...
I just emailed him like a freakin one page story about my night last night and for once..I don’t feel stupid for talking. Maybe i need to not give a fuck about what I say more often. It felt good to say what was on my mind without having to think twice. A….what the fuck is wrong with me?
I wonder how it feels to smoke
I feel so introverted these days…which makes me pretty uncomfortable.
When i’m at parties now I feel so out of place because I can’t get myself to be social anymore. I became too comfortable with being myself.
I always feel like I have two sides..one that’s loud, outgoing and happy and one that’s quiet, somewhat snobby, and serious. I hate the latter. WHY...